10/22/2012
Anu ba nangyayari sakin emo na naman ako. Kidding aside, I am having some sort of depression given my present condition like now knowing that I failed my Calculus subject and not so sure to the others specially in Physics and Social Science. I must understand if I will fail my Physics subject but Social Science?? You must be kidding me!! Yeah I know, I blame myself for not showing most of the time in the class and for not making it serious to study. I'm so stupid! And then earlier, my classmate pm me that all of us pass the Social Science subject except for one poor guy. If that will be me "Oh my HoLLy!!!", I will not forgive myself. And besides there's no room for regrets shit already happens, it cannot be back but I cant help myself to think about it. All of the efforts I wasted specially my Father's effort to give us the life He thinks we deserved and also the time matters most for me. I want to cry it out, all of it but simply I cant.
Anu ba nangyayari sakin emo na naman ako. Kidding aside, I am having some sort of depression given my present condition like now knowing that I failed my Calculus subject and not so sure to the others specially in Physics and Social Science. I must understand if I will fail my Physics subject but Social Science?? You must be kidding me!! Yeah I know, I blame myself for not showing most of the time in the class and for not making it serious to study. I'm so stupid! And then earlier, my classmate pm me that all of us pass the Social Science subject except for one poor guy. If that will be me "Oh my HoLLy!!!", I will not forgive myself. And besides there's no room for regrets shit already happens, it cannot be back but I cant help myself to think about it. All of the efforts I wasted specially my Father's effort to give us the life He thinks we deserved and also the time matters most for me. I want to cry it out, all of it but simply I cant.
Another thing is I am badly looking for a person, a friend or simply a stranger to talk to. I want to spill out all my sadness and regrets to that person. I am looking for comfort or simply one who will encourage me that I must not think of this problems and just focus on the present and to my future. But once again I have failed. There's no one to talk to, except that I am left to my room alone lying on my bed in front of my laptop and typing this blog. God please help me!
This is not enough,
Juan
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